Saturday, August 18, 2007

The Promotion...Kidding

Recently, my husband's company sent out an email asking if anyone was willing to transfer to Dallas, Texas. This was a little ironic, mainly because he was just thinking how he would like to live there to help this one guy expose certain TV preachers. He just said this in a joking manner, then the offer form Dallas. My husband and I prayed about this and decided that would very much like to move to TX and that this would be a great opportunity for us. Everything seemed to be pointing this way. It was as if God was sending us signs for this Big move across the United States. I am not kidding. This may seem lame to you but ... Every company we ordered from was in Texas. We home school our children and by accident when I was searching for books online. I found this bookstore, and guess where it was located. It was located town outside of Dallas that we had looked at a house in. My husbands Manager stated she would support him 100%, if he wanted to go. My husbands company pays for everything to be transfered, a small raise would have been included. He's working on his masters in accounting, and this would be a great career move. He would have been promoted to a trainer. Well, we're thinking that we are going to be able to go. Everything seemed to be falling into place. My husband is very intense, he checks out everything, I mean everything. Well, apparently he had all these papers on the city and the surrounding area. Like what are the best parks and is this place family friendly, what is the best area... etc. Then on Friday My husbands manager after my husband was asking about the transfer said, "We decided last week not to send you to Texas." Wait a minute... didn't she say she would support a move there. She was one of the people choosing people, and Couldn't she have told us last week. My husband is very upset. He set dreams for us in place. I too am disappointed. My husband told me he threw away the papers he had made. For the last 24hrs he has been rather bitter. I keep telling him things he has told me lately about my faith. Like did you say that Paul said to rejoice in the pain God gives you. I can't blame him for being upset. The neighborhood we are in now is not desirable, and with 4children and my husband income it is impossible to move to a different home here. We have a beautiful home and it is quite large. Other homes we have looked at in this area are much smaller for the price, and the neighborhoods are not much better. In, Texas especially with the moving incentive, we could afford a home in a better place. The houses are very large there from what we have been looking at. Our house here is this large because it was built in 1900's. Our neighbors just moved from Michigan and they say they had the same problem here...expensive little houses. We have a family of 6 and really need a four bedroom home. Our children can't ride their bikes because we live on a busy street. No other children live around here. For a long time we have been dreaming of a neighborhood, with children and non-busy streets. A home that I could have dinner parties at. Perhaps on a cu-ti-sac, with a park. It really doesn't have to be that extravagant, just nice enough and large enough. When people come to our home here, they look at the neighborhood and our old but clean home and they are very scared it seems. They will not even sit on our used furniture. From that point on we are considered... you know... trash. We are educated people, my family was educated, this house was a gift from God it really was. So, I don't invite people over. The shack my family bought for me years ago. That I lost. I didn't invite people there either. It's as though people see that house here. In Texas we could have started over. Another thing that happens here, is that when people meet my 16 year old daughter, they distance themselves from us. Let me put it this way. We go to a church the first couple of weeks they do not meet her, because she is with her dad. The church welcomes us. Then she comes to church with us, they say "oh this must be your sister." No I say this is my daughter. They immediately snub us. Then their children it seems are kept away from her. Sad really. I am thankful that she doesn't feel their ignorance. So we leave that church. Two years ago God finally gave us a church home. They did not make judgments about us. Six months after attending, my daughter had some issues we went to a associate pastor for advice and prayer. It was as if immediately the kids her age quit talking to her. She has since then really grown with Jesus Christ, but she is still not in the clique'. In, Texas no one would know her problems. A new life a new beginning. I believe that God can still send us there. I believe that if we are meant to stay here then we are not finished here...

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