The Beginning

This is a beginning for me, a new adventure. In other words I have never blogged, I have never wanted to expose my deepest thoughts to the world. But here lately... I can't seem to consume them all. My husband was the one whom suggested an online diary or rather blogging. I have spent most of my life attempting to hide all of my hurts and pains, Hiding my past, my childhood. So much so that often times I am unsure who I really am. I have focused so much time and effort in what other say or think I should be or do. What an existence? Right? On this note, I believe that their are very few people that are not attempting the same fate. People are lost, sad, searching, faking happiness, and never true to themselves or God. These are the most important factors in a persons life. God. Themselves. Really, i mean before family, children, husbands, or wives. How does a person learn to love? How does a person let go of the past and hang on the future? They should look towards God Almighty first, right. Then look inside to their mistakes. This can be a dangerous game. If you look to far, to deep you can fall into desperation and self pity.